I spent a fair amount of time on the internet looking for inspiration and the like on the subject of “Self Improvement” and came across mostly, lists of “100 things to do……” etc. all of which seemed to simply be “be better at everything” and i’m rubbish at stuff like that so it all seemed a bit daunting, however, I am willing to throw myself into things so here goes…..
I think this year I am focusing on getting healthier. In both body and mind I think it is good to have fun but I should start taking a bit more care of myself really.
I know I’m overweight and my lifestyle is not brilliant but I would rather have fun in my life and not spend the time worrying about eating fat or the fact that I smoke. I’d rather live a shorter more fun life than a long time missing out. I would also, of course, like to be thinner and prettier so I tend to go from one extreme to the other, which is a shame but something i’m pretty sure is rooted in my self esteem issues. Sometimes the effort seems worth it and others I just think “why bother”, I actually hate that. I’d rather it be making a decision and sticking to it. Like “I will get thinner” which will be enough of a drive to get me to exercise more and eat better but no matter what size I am, I hate the look of myself and nothing short of intense surgery will help that.
So, in an effort to be healthier, I have started walking (I wanted to say running but let’s not kid ourselves!!) I’ve signed up for a couple of sponsored events through the year and am seriously considering trying for a 10k or half marathon in October. I’m not sure now i’ll be able to finish, but i’m going to try and push myself, maybe it’ll be something I fall in love with haha. My brother did a marathon a few years back, and he’s most definitely NOT a runner so if he can do it, maybe I will be able to do it too.
Another thing i’m doing is avoiding Palm Oil products in my food (and everything else). I adopted an orangutan in January and it’s things like Palm oil farming that is forcing them out of their natural homes. I know that just me not buying items which contain it will stop the trade or anything like that but I a firm believer in money talking, if I want to support a good company, then I am happy to do so. I don’t think it’s right that I should save 1 orang to simply make hundreds/thousands of his family homeless.
I’m hoping that by being a bit healthier, and a bit more conscious about what I’m putting in my body, I will hopefully feel better about myself as a whole. I do struggle with very low self esteem and this affects everything I do, from how I dress to how I learn things and I do want to improve. I was considering some kind of Neuro – linguistic programming but part of me feels this is too much, I mean, I should just learn to believe people and the things they say as opposed to the things my mind says but it is just so hard. I really wish I could start to believe things people say to me but I spend so long questioning and doubting them.
So, maybe that’s what I should improve on, myself as a whole. The place I take in the world is most definitely under review and hopefully by the end of this year, I will be better, whether that’s thinner/healthier/funnier or more confident I have literally no idea. Wish me luck and keep an eye out for updates on here.
I think that the above might be a good start for improving myself…….I’m always happy to have feedback and critique so if you want to say anything at all to me, please feel free 😀
What about you lovely reader? What thing would you most like to improve upon in 2018?