Happy Jar 2018

So once again it’s time to go through the list – not actually a jar this year, but then saying Happy Envelope is slightly less fun sounding – and see what fab things happened last year and to show how much fab stuff happened that I would have forgotten.

I genuinely think that this helps me to focus more on the positive, I spend so much time stressing about tiny things that go wrong as opposed to just stepping back and seeing the bigger picture, I would definitely recommend this to everyone, even to try it just once, I think you’d be amazed at the things that get pushed away and replaced with bigger “more important” stuff!

So here we go……..

  • Baking my own bread
  • Claire is coming to Drag World with me!
  • Sitting on Maye’s balcony putting the world to rights
  • The man offering to walk me to work in the snow
  • more 5ks done
  • Molly @ drag world getting us backstage to meet Katya – arrrrrrrrggggggggg
  • face sparkles for day 2 at drag world
  • Light Up Poole – loving the pretty lights
  • Ed’s leaving drinks, love spending time with Amanda, she’s so funny
  • Working our way through Diablo 3 Hardcore – I may even manage to get 1 character through!
  • Watching the world cup – for once I sort of enjoyed it
  • Being called “Cute” by the ACTUAL Alaska
  • The surprise that Hans Enuf expressed when Claire asked for a pic “With me???”
  • Yummy baklava and wraps from the little shop near Drag World
  • Showing the man Stacey’s game collection – he was very jealous
  • RT’d be James O’Brien and liked over 100 times
  • Managed to get to work in the snow, may have taken much longer than normal but I did it
  • Angry Scots in the queue for Alaska giving me a glimpse of Sandra and bolstering my reserve.
  • Buying silly girl clothes and making the man laugh when I try to be feminine
  • Bringing in croissants for breakfast at work with Amy and Amanda
  • Lego Jurassic Park with S, so glad he puts up with my geekiness
  • Nice group of people at Slimming World
  • Confusing Katya by asking for a cuddle – who knew the American’s don’t use that word
  • Winning a tattoo for Drag world – I must learn to read competitions as I thought it was for an autograph!!
  • No negativity at drag world – everyone seemed to be comfortable and not judgy
  • Treating S to a breakfast in town before heading home for a games day – love our “weekends”
  • Sending out more letters and books
  • Super quick haircut – she may have cured me of my hairdresser fear
  • Raspberry pink hair dye, S still thinks I’m fit
  • Epic dog obviously not wanting to be taken for a walk at Hotel 65
  • Making new friends thanks to #PratchettPostal
  • Photo a day challenge done in Sept – I stuck to it!
  • Ordering more coffee and chili jams
  • sending a love box to Becky
  • passive aggressive graffiti in London
  • Tea at Claire’s, putting the world to rights and preparing for Drag world
  • Message from S while I was in London ” make memories to last a lifetime” – he is so sweet to me
  • Tesco’s macarons for dessert with fruit was a much better idea than the fat ones at the burger place we ate
  • Good to catch up with Andy – loved his reaction to seeing me “F*ck me mate, where’ve you gone?”
  • Chatting all the way up to London – so excited for this!
  • Buying NIN merch for S
  • being hungover and going to the George for fat Friday
  • Ben Murray bringing in sweet almond cake with caramel toffee sauce – epicness
  • long stressful week leading to a superb weekend
  • love the fact S now doesn’t work on Sundays
  • Gareth Southgate’s hug to the Columbian player who missed his penalty – top bloke
  • Nice breakkie in Hotel 65 – if only we’d have known about the queue we may not have loitered so long
  • watching the Architects review and holding S’s hand in case it was awful
  • Ankh Morpork bits from Sue – she got to go to the Emporium lucky thing!!
  • Being used as an example of a “good Pratchett fan” by the Emporium
  • Aiden Orange is such a lovely bloke, glad we met him
  • Having early morning laughs with Stacey at work
  • I love the feeling I have now I’m thinner, bit more comfortable as me
  • Seeing a massive car accident in Poole, glad everyone is safe
  • Lovely night with Claire and Charlie, always lovely to see them
  • Day on the 20’s nice to meet new drivers and to hear that he had retracted his resignation.
  • seeing Glemi in town, such a wonderful lady, miss her in my life
  • going door knocking for Poole Labour
  • getting more crafty bits, love making things, no matter how bad I am at it
  • waking the man up to cuddle and snuggle
  • blanket time on the sofa
  • introducing him to Drag Race
  • Dad’s birthday at full plate restaurant, more expensive but still great food
  • starting cross stitch for xmas gifts
  • sorting the filing cabinets at work – they will be more organised
  • 75 books so far sent for Pratchett Postal
  • finding a cute pic of Okto being bathed
  • Taking mum out for her birthday, love her so much
  • Dad has given me his other camera, I need to sort my skills and start focusing more
  • organising a food drive through work, so pleased so many people have got involved
  • White stuff dress with pockets from the doggy trust – like a quid!!
  • new table so we can board game, good business drive from mum – even getting us a discount
  • love it when he holds my hand
  • Alfie nearly making himself sick with quality street
  • Looking at flats together, our lives are moving on
  • Getting involved with Helping Hands in Bournemouth, great charity
  • Tiffany Snowflake necklace – love him so much
  • Pratchett Postal has also helped me, got some of the maps and some books that weren’t in my collection
  • Duelosaur Island received from Kickstarter
  • Issue with a missing card for Architects, fixed really quickly, am very impressed
  • getting chips down by the quay in the rain with S
  • Walking to Table Table for lunch in the summer
  • Buying lunch for 3 homeless in Poole, would hate to be in their shoes so always happy to help.
  • having a wonderful eve with my man
  • Claire and I possibly making it look like we were outing ourselves to Darienne Lake
  • Slimmer of the week!!
  • Going bowling with Amy, Amanda and her friends
  • Watching the “Nature of the Beast” documentary with mum
  • board game Sunday – love having him home for Sundays
  • getting involved and helping out with Defend Dorset NHS and Poole Labour
  • Helping out a new homeless person, Lee, seems lovely
  • Film day with S for my birthday
  • Valentines gaming – I am the champion
  • Claire saying she may come to Drag world, would be great to have a pal along
  • Roosters with mum – nice change from KFC
  • Sue and I talking parachute jumps
  • epic valentine’s day, massive bunch of roses, coffee, pizza tray and cacti
  • wonderful takeaway as a treat while imp on SW
  • Making bookmarks for the lovely Greebos lot
  • lovely working with Alison and Alan in cs
  • Meeting the tattooist at the con and being terrified of him until he found out who we were meeting and then he became really lovely!
  • Buying me flowers to make me smile
  • Seeing the beauties that are Emma and Rach, so pleased and confused as to why they still like me but so grateful they do!
  • Fun with the CS guys – who’d have thought it?
  • sprinkles cookie dough with pistachio ice cream
  • Angry Amanda buying me smellies for my birthday
  • doing some colouring in, very relaxing
  • new phone
  • Finding a good name for the Bonsai
  • Alfie asking for reports from June 2017 and when I sent them to him asking when they were for “June possibly?”
  • chicken pesto and moz panini – yum
  • Bringing in treats for my work colleagues
  • Okto likes to drink, and spit
  • more chili jams – i may have a problem
  • Amy getting a strike whilst bowling and being with 2 people doing Dry January!
  • The man winning Roll and an Ankh Morpork – possibly his best ever day
  • Looking after the man while his shoulder hurts
  • falling in the snow and seeing my homeless man who made me walk to work with him to make sure I’d be ok
  • dealing with the snow, learning to not be so afraid
  • being open with people about why imp so afraid of the snow
  • Charlie hides replied to me – shame we didn’t get to see her
  • mum meeting and scaring Alfie “ahhh the man of the buses”
  • signing up for yet another firewalk
  • buying silly games for S
  • New Pandemic purchased for us to work on!
  • wethers with S when we couldn’t go to see Charlie Hides
  • Slimming world stickers – best thing about it!
  • Seeing Drag Kings for the first time and getting new artist inspirations – Lolo Brow and Scarlett O’Hora
  • Recieving a Mr Grippy Badge – I am part of one of the best groups out there
  • Matt and Beth both doing really well, so proud to still have them in my life
  • phone calls with Liam and Bird, miss them so much
  • lovely message from darienne lake after we met her
  • Passed my theory test
  • booked tickets to see Phill Jupitus
  • offering cake for autographs, who knew I only needed badges for a photo instead
  • “I win everything apart from Roll” S – cue him winning
  • S calls EVERYTHING – MasterChef, bake off, apprentice etc.
  • Front row and MG tickets booked for Charlie Hides
  • Getting introduced to All Stars – not my fave but still, it’s more drag
  • Cactus from my love – Is it cos i’m a bit of a prick?
  • codenames and worms – I am getting better
  • Finding old photos at work and having to explain what negatives were, and the whole experience
  • Buying a Pratchett for #PratchettPostal and realising it is signed – paid double the asking price and got myself a bargain
  • Nice to bump into Chris Kent again, and always nice to be given flowers!
  • organising the tat drawers
  • George fat Friday lunch with Amy and Amanda
  • Tea that tastes of biscuits?
  • Katya smelt AMAZING
  • Angel Wing picture – one I actually kind of like of me
  • Wandering through bits of London to find our hotel, really close and a lovely but tiny room – very cute and it had tea stuff sorted – ideal!
  • loving simply cook – it’s fun to make things together and then enjoy yummy new meals
  • ordering west wing stuff
  • helping CS – glad I don’t have to do it much more
  • Butch Queen – I really hope he showered at least cos the outfit was tiny
  • sizing in Primark making me happy and then sad all in about 3 seconds
  • new pretty wedges
  • book chat on Facebook
  • looking at Prague zoo extensions – cannot wait to go back
  • coffee and dice play date with Amanda, Amy and Claire
  • all characters now at level 70 in Diablo
  • love our weekends off together – well mid-week weekends are the best
  • watching alien documentaries together – he is a  believer
  • Seeing Annelies and family and having a F^ck it meal
  • we’ve been together 6 years – 6 whole years
  • love spending time at Charlie and Claire’s, gorgeous garden in the sunshine
  • deep fried mac n cheese
  • going to clubbercize with Rach, she’s so much fun
  • Discworld Sunday – I am the champion
  • always nice to drop in and see the Rose red family
  • Codenames is a new but rock hard game, we are both rubbish!
  • RT’d by DJ Yoda
  • new cute lunchbox – whale of a time!
  • proud of myself to be able to handle the snow
  • Epic boss letting me go home early so I didn’t get too scared of the snow
  • make mixtapes great again
  • remembering how fun snow can be – heading to the water’s edge and getting some nice shots
  • writing more feels very liberating
  • signing up to walk 31 miles in Jan and actually completing  75miles instead
  • great meet up with Emma and Claire, wish I lived closer as they are both so wonderful
  • sprinkles with school friends
  • new phone
  • Canvas summer bags from work – actually nice stuff
  • Helping Diana with GDPR
  • Mum has lost so much weight, proud of her but don’t want her to be too tiny
  • Communing with WAY too many dogs on my Poole Park wanders
  • Even in snow I managed 10,000 steps a day throughout March for Cancer Research
  • Badges galore
  • he actually seemed to like his Valentine’s day card
  • Schooling him on Roll – one day my luck will run out but not yet
  • planning and actually doing a night out with Heather
  • a night of possibly making new friends
  • my life rules
  • I can do the SW thing, I will do this
  • Burgers as a treat in London, it was that or keep walking for ages!!
  • people at work being so lovely to me about my weight loss
  • Alfie explaining the difference between a canoe and a kayak
  • SW recipe books giving me more inspiration
  • getting a new laptop – well a cheap laptop to write more
  • Filing, organizing and shredding at work, lots to do but nice getting organised
  • Looking forward to our week off together, most time we’ve spent together in ever!!
  • Adam “is it the same as last year cos that’s how I’ve done it” – ok, that’ll be the same then!
  • Despite my fear, S always seems to believe in me
  • Winning an Alaska Funko from Ems on twitter, buying another and giving her to Claire
  • Positive lessons
  • Completed Hard-core – now on to the next level!
  • Exploring Instagram properly, fun to have a new medium to play with
  • Power cut whilst at Claire’s – thankfully the kettle had just boiled!!
  • Seeing Mayes – I miss her face so much, it’s weird only seeing her ever few weeks
  • People being lovely at work during the bad weather, offering to walk me home or the like.
  • Badge swaps at the Jupitus gig, glad to have been involved and will keep my badges forever
  • Mum doing chocolate dipped fruit for a dessert and wanting my help as “she didn’t know how to do it”
  • Dinner at Banana Wharf with Amy, Amanda and Karen – Amanda’s pal – lovely Italian food
  • Small flurries of snow
  • Coming into work through the snow to do the TMF – I know the boss was grateful and lovely of Diana and her husband to wait while I did it so they could lock up.
  • Re-discovering old albums throughout the year – Forever Faithless, Gold Against the Soul, Original Pirate Material and Complete Madness
  • Nikki getting cookies for us when I was in CS – bribery is always positive!
  • Love the feeling of fitting in smaller clothes, feel prettier and happier
  • Having a sod it meal when we saw Annelies and family – cheese, wine, fried things, sauces, yumminess
  • Looking through old pics of Becky’s. Miss her so much.
  • So great to bump into Lacei at Drag world, and to meet her daughter – it has been far too long!
  • Rhianna Pratchett liking my tweet about Granny Weatherwax – She didn’t do good by them, she did right by them.
  • Customer counting on the yellows
  • Starting Pratchett Postal, would be nice to see if I meet nice people and can share my love of Pratchett with the world
  • making mum laugh by my stupidness, so pleased our relationship is good
  • Cheeseboard and chili jams
  • Cuddles with my honey
  • Bianca del Rio autograph for the gorgeous Pixie, I miss her so much
  • Blog posts actually being read, not sure why but I’ll take it!
  • Traveline meeting – actually understood more this time and felt less of an idiot
  • Spending nights in summer just talking and putting the world to rights with the man
  • Signing up for the Poole 5k
  • getting odd socks – best thing for laundry ever
  • Buying silly gifts for friends, sending love packages to Beth, Matt and Becky.
  • Lovely meal with S at Holes Bay, nice summer walk and lunch
  • The colour run – 10m faster than the last one
  • Hitting target at Slimming World – size 12!!!
  • Summer walks round the park with the man, love where we live
  • Making a new friend at the colour run, so glad that Steph was taking part too, she helped motivate me and is a lovely girl to have a laugh with
  • Actually winning at Colditz – escaping in the commander’s car!
  • SW isn’t as frightening as I thought, there were some really lovely friendly people there
  • Organising a Drag Bag for Claire and our weekend away!
  • Alfie moaning about the latest timetable art which is “false advertising as it’s got an E200 on the front and they don’t do that route”
  • Losing at Pandemic and being cooked a conciliation omelette by the KING of eggs
  • Restarting Minecraft
  • Nick bringing in epic trifle for before Xmas – even Alfie came back for it!
  • 5k at Poole done, 43.22 – not as fast as id have liked, feel like death but glad I did it, hopefully next year would be better
  • losing weight, so pleased things are moving and looking forward to being a bit thinner
  • Marc and Nick laughing when I said Pancentric lied to me and turning the screens towards each other to show the lie
  • Phill Jupitus eve with mum, epic night, lots of laughs and got a selfie too
  • Buying a new lunchbox and diary for SW – I will lose weight and will be healthier
  • Driving a day on the dual carriageways, it is getting easier – slowly and surely
  • Speaking with Sandra, suggesting I go and see her once she’s back in Competa, so pleased she’s getting better
  • Bumped into Kev when I was in Bournemouth, bought him lunch. Glad I managed to do this before he passed away, hate feeling like he was alone at the end.
  • Badges for my summer bag
  • Pretzel Dog lunches – a proper treat and a lovely couple in charge, hope they stay for a long time
  • Neil Gaiman liked my tweet!!!
  • Getting a gorgeous love box from Beth 🙂
  • Nick, Rachelle and the kids coming and seeing me at Winton Sally craft fair
  • Buying PretzelDog for the homeless I know, they are such a lovely couple in there, am happy to help out
  • Rhianna, Stephen, Disc Emporium all helping me to get PratchettPostal off the ground by RTing and spreading the word.
  • I actually feel like i’m making good friends online, even without meeting them
  • Hearing all about Denise’s holiday plans
  • Snowflake necklace from S for xmas, possibly the best xmas gift i’ve ever had – so beautiful
  • seeing the boy ROCKING his gold high heels on our way to Dragworld
  • Introducing the man to Drag Race, not sure if he’d like it then getting a text the next day asking to watch more – ONE OF US!
  • Got a takeaway with S and an early night as helping out in CS is going to be a nightmare!
  • Starting to look at flats – our lives are moving forwards
  • England had a brilliant world cup – even I got involved in the excitement
  • Buying new clothes – smaller sizes
  • Duvet down and lots of computer silly games
  • Going for walks in the summer once the sun has gone down a bit – less blisteringly hot
  • ice creams together in Poole Park
  • Meeting Rach in town for a coffee – we will plan on SW and clubbercize together
  • Worms champion!
  • First SW target (10%) hit on week 14
  • Baking bread, can feel my confidence growing
  • asking S if he wanted to come see the Queen film and getting a response of “let me get my tache and cape”
  • Message from Mrs Kasha Davis ❤
  • walking round complimenting so many people at DragWorld, they looked so beautiful
  • Finishing the X stitch for S for xmas
  • getting thud for xmas, fun but not sure we’ll ever be experts
  • Emma liking her Pampling T – Disney Princesses
  • Making my own bread, feels amazing but very bad for me – will need it to be an infrequent thing!
  • I love the fact the he is being more open with me, I want us to be stronger together
  • Peanut butter with no palm oil!
  • 7 day black and white challenge completed
  • Sitting in McDonalds and catching up with old friends
  • Nick telling everyone to read last year’s list – he’s always so lovely to me and supportive
  • Making soup to go with my bread – feel very house on the prairie
  • Going to Stabcon South and playing new games and also seeing a (sort of, very minor) gaming celeb.
  • Denise buying cakes for CS and popping one in to me – epic work mum!
  • Soup and sandwiches – we’re so rock and roll
  • Meal at the Shah with mum, dad and the man – last meal out before I start SW
  • Getting sent files for PratchettPostal by a lovely person on Twitter – now my background pic, really lovely touch making it look more professional
  • New games for us to play – Iberia is very fun
  • I’m so lucky I have such a great man, he is so wonderful to me
  • making a chicken bacon and leek pie, sharing a pic and being nagged to make one for work too
  • Genuinely enjoyed Phill Jupitus, a great show and very nice person
  • Chatting with Claire, miss seeing her everyday but so lucky we still keep in touch
  • RT’d by David Baddiel
  • Buying Colditz as a whim, never gonna win but hey, a new game……wait….how long are the games????
  • Gamster T for my Gamster
  • size 14 and getting my stone loss award  – exciting
  • Helping mum in the garden, not my favourite thing but love
  • helping the homeless is becoming a bit of an obsession
  • Love my work mates, watering Shiri whilst I was away
  • Started watching the Alienist
  • phew Childish Gambino is HAWT
  • Seeing Bohemian Rhapsody with Mum and S, a very fun time and a great film.
  • Possibly looking at a cheap sunny holiday, would be lovely to just chill out and enjoy the sun
  • Looking at a house together, it didn’t work out but looking forward to us having our lives move forward
  • Slow cooker fun with S – chicken curry, sausage casseroles and bolognaise – really looking forward to seeing what else we can create
  • Signing up for more runs, I will hit my target at some point!
  • getting a lovely response letter – with handmade seal from a Pratchett Postal recipient
  • so pleased people seem to be getting involved with the Pratchett Postal – 50 books sent so far
  • So many lovely people online
  • toasties are my new favourite thing
  • Claire buying me the “Dammit Janet” necklace
  • Being part of the AFP club, she speaks to me and it really resonates, glad to be helping her out at the same time
  • mail from Miz Cracker – little bit in love
  • Starting to back things on Kickstarter
  • Love it when he tells me he loves me
  • Seeing Kelly’s photos -shes such a wonderful model
  • RT’d by the book trust “what have childhood books taught you?” Pooh Bear was my inspiration
  • not being sure we’re going the right way until we got on the tube to see people wearing glitter, feathers and a lot of bling – we found our tribe
  • looking at possible summer holidays with S would love to go somewhere warm together
  • epic lunch at work, great team and we all seem to pull together well
  • Architects of West Kingdom arrived safely after 8 months
  • Meeting Nathan Law at Drag world
  • Charity shop bargain – finding Catan for 3 quid
  • Feeling more confident with my reports – glad to know I am helping at work and fitting into the team
  • Funky jewellery from Over the Rainbow
  • Vinyl arrived for S for his Xmas gift, ltd. edition NIN new album
  • Beanies coffee may be my new obsession
  • looking into doing a fire and ice walk
  • buying Pampling stuff for friends and loved ones
  • Amy and Amanda came and supported me at the colour run
  • mum and dad as always the ones who support me most
  • Homeless man with a laptop – mums epic classic lack of observation rises again as it was actually a BT engineer
  • getting organised with VOSA at work, glad to be taking more control over bits at work
  • Being bought Lin Manual Miranda’s book by a random stranger thanks to Pratchett Postal
  • RT’d by mama herself, Michelle Visage
  • Playing Newmarket with S mum and dad on Boxing day, lovely snacky food and nibbles and as always fun times
  • silent discos on a sat morning while the man is at work
  • Meeting young Thanos at Stabcon South
  • Trying a variety of the Cornish bake houses products simply to find something that holds the warmth
  • nagging the boss to go home after his hospital time, good that he eventually will listen to me
  • Making my own sushi – this could become completely obsessive!
  • Buying myself Ru’s signed book
  • Listening to Bianca Del Rios book, love how salty yet loving she is
  • starting doing cross stitch things with S, he’s so creative
  • waking up for cuddles on a Sunday
  • lessons seem to be going ok, getting more confident
  • Calling dad for bread advice
  • finding new games for S for Xmas, hope he likes them
  • filling my fridge with SW friendly foods – I will lose weight
  • Heading to Stabcon with S, looking forward to new games and meeting people
  • Great that Amy came to Stabcon, lovely to spend time with her and great she gets on so well with S, makes him more comfortable
  • meeting mayes for breakkie, within about 5 mins we’ve caught up on all news
  • Popping to Bos Vegas to see Andy, always nice to see the fella
  • Played Catan, Ticket to Ride, Tobago and Isle of Skye when at Soton
  • love the fact he holds my hand when we go out
  • Brave S coming into the office as he forgot his keys
  • Ginger Minj wearing trainers!
  • adopting Okto ❤
  • Really sweet text from S looking forward to us being somewhere new and together
  • meeting S for lunch and despite the rain he got out a carrier for us to sit on so we didn’t get wet bums
  • cleaning the flat and buying flowers, all to make it beautiful
  • clearing out the old cupboard, nice to lighten up the rubbish we have
  • taking mum for coffee in Poole
  • dad’s birthday at Full Plate, so pleased my parents and S all seem to get on
  • Love him for always saying yes when I ask him to do stuff, he does so much for me
  • Seagull vs the man whilst we had a mixed fillings sandwich – the seagull won
  • Cooking sausage casserole while we wandered round town and then back to play games
  • RT’d by RICHARD SCHIFF!!!!!
  • Finding the West Wing Weekly on Spotify!
  • getting Cougar town on boxset for like a quid
  • Over 100 books sent out for #PratchettPostal. Am blown away and looking forward to something equally as random in 2019!
  • Lots of people getting involved in Pratchett Postal
  • He’s so supportive of my photos – suggesting photo ideas for the future
  • RT’d by Pro Green
  • Getting to scratch off more of my 40 for 40 challenges.
  • He is just so lovely to me. Felt rubbish today at work and he gave me big hugs and totally catered to my whims

so there we go – finally! I’m sure there’s little things i’ve forgotten but overall, I would say this is a pretty good list. Here’s to a brill 2019 and I hope for those who read this, they aren’t too confused or embarrassed!!

Why do I blog?

Ever since I started blogging, people have been asking me why do I blog. Even I ask myself the same questions, “Why do I blog?”, “Should I continue to blog?” day in and day out. I find myself constantly questioning myself, my worth and the point of it all……in thoughts such as these and many more!

I am not a good writer, why should I write?
There are so many great articles out there, why bother trying to reach that level?
There are so many people that are more knowledgeable than me, why try?
No one will read my blog, why should even write one – I talk to myself a lot anyway, why would anyone else want to read it?
I have never been a good writer, why should I try and inevitably fail …?
My content quality is shoddy…

This is a going to be written a fair while before I share it, the current 30 day subjects is scary – I’m stressing about writing every day. This isn’t easy and am tempted to go back to less blogs simply to give my brain a break haha!

But yes, why do I blog?

There are many things that I use this blog for, I wanted it to be about my crafting, my journey and the like but as time has gone by and i’ve done less of the actual work my cottage industry needs this blog has become more of a balance space for me. I do enjoy writing – fear about the daily challenges aside – and am genuinely baffled that some people actually seem to enjoy what I write, and am enjoying using this as more of a therapy tool for myself.

Sadness can be a drive:

I do have a very up/down mentality and I know that sometimes a tiny thing can have me feeling really down. I am trying to improve and be a better version of myself but know that it can be useful to vent on somewhere technically anonymous and then I don’t have to worry about the fallout when loved ones see that I am down. Does that make sense? I can vent, get all my feelings out and by the time I hit that publish button – often WEEKS after having the rant in the first place – I am totally done, whereas if I was to share on Facebook or Twitter my instant feelings I’d have people on me all the time checking on me and more to the point, stressing about me and I never want that.

To help me work through:

I write to keep me sane, to keep me calm and to keep me balanced. I am enjoying writing the day challenges as they often give me new things to think and talk about, it’s also a great way to ensure that I stand by my views, they make me think about things and I use the blog as a way for me to answer some of my own questions too. I know that there can be a fair few which duplicate but I am hoping to be more organised next year and maybe split the blog into different moods for different jobs…..cooking, books, craft work and general life. I’m not sure. I need to get more organised in so many ways!!

Why else would I blog?

To share my views:

I suppose in an ideal world, I’d like to write a blog which people enjoy spending time with. I’m never going to be able to do this full time – and to be fair, who would want me to be wittering away like that? – but I just enjoy when people comment or share and give me their thoughts. I love hearing what people think, or starting new conversations and I’m loving that on here, it is always a good way to help express myself and to aid me in finding my tribe.

Blogging has helped me (i’d like to think) that I do have an opinion, if I want to talk about something I should just throw myself into it and use this for me, for my platform, for my views.

I am genuinely really enjoying writing at the moment, I know I say that I stress – especially with a daily challenge when I don’t actually have much spare time and I would like to do it more and am hopeful that 2019 will be the year or crafting my work, however that decides to show itself – but I do really love writing, getting my thoughts on paper (or the computer) and being able to get them out!

What about yourselves? I’m assuming you are here for a purpose and if so, what is that? Have you changed the way you write in your time here or am I totally out of the loop?

Have a wonderful day, I love reading all the blogs I follow (and those I find randomly) and if anyone wants to suggest new things for me to read, please feel free!

A brief interruption from the daily challenges.

Today, I’d like to do something a little different to the current writing challenge and spend some time giving a bit of love to my mum Barb.

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It’s actually her birthday today (so if you are reading this mum, have a superb day) and if you are reading this and aren’t my mum, why not send her a Happy Birthday from around the world?

I should say, she’s going to hate some of these pics probably so wish me luck that she takes them in the spirit it was intended!!

My mum is great. Yes, ok, I know most people say that but I’m actually right! She and my dad have always done their best for me – in every way and I cannot thank them enough. They have both supported me, and although I tend to wax lyrical about my dad more frequently, I felt it was time to share the love of my mum.

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I know that during my life, we have not always been the best of friends, a lot of the first few months in Spain we bumped heads a lot, we are, I feel, quite similar and unfortunately we didn’t always see eye to eye. I know looking back on it now she was doing her best but I know that a lot of hurtful words passed between us and when I moved back to the UK, I really tried to bite my tongue. If mum said something that would normally piss me off, I definitely tried not to rise to it. I knew that arguments would not help our relationship and I’ll be honest, there have been times when she has said something really hurtful, or cruel as far as I see it and I’ve just not bitten because what would come afterwards would be far worse. Over time I’ve also learned that this was the same towards my mum, I know i’ve said some really unkind things and also said things that to me didn’t mean anything but to her cut to the bone.

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I’m making it sound like we were constantly at each other’s throats which isn’t true at all, I feel we’ve both mellowed as we’ve got older and I know that due to the few periods of stress and  depression I’ve had we’ve had to learn how to talk and more importantly LISTEN to each other properly – I think we’ve both been open and realised how much we have hurt each other in the past but now are actually working to improve and try to be more loving.

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I know my mums relationship with her mum is very important, they were both so close and loved each other so deeply and I know my mum wants that with me, it may not be as close but I’d like to think that we are friends now and will be able to carry that on for many more years.

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I know that when I was at my lowest, it was my mum who dragged me out of it, she was willing to listen to my sadness, to feel my lethargy and to (thankfully) not judge. I know sometimes I wouldn’t have been 100% honest with her during those times as I know that if I had been, it would have been more hurtful (I mean, how can you tell your own mother that you’d sat looking at a bottle of pills for over 4 hours just debating who would be the one to find you, how to make sure it wasn’t her, how to look after her even when I wasn’t here) so although I know I lied, I’m so proud of her for just taking everything I said and not making me feel bad for struggling. I think we both learned a lot during that time (if nothing else that things we had both said in the past had really affected the other person so to be more mindful of the off the cuff comments we make, as we do not know what the other person will be going through) and I think that our relationship really matured and became much more close at that point. I know now I can be honest with mum, I can treat her as a person not just my mum and that helps a lot.

One of the few things that I took from my last bout of therapy was about learning to accept your parents as human beings, people capable of both good and bad things as we all are and to not hold them up to a higher standard. Everyone makes mistakes, just because they are your parents doesn’t mean they have all the answers and throughout my childhood, my mum and dad made the best decisions as they saw them at the time, doesn’t mean they all worked out that way but that I should stop holding them responsible for things which they didn’t know the outcome of. I used to hate the fact we moved (when we moved there) as I felt so alone and scared, but ask me now and I say that Spain was the best thing to ever happen to me, it strengthened me, it shaped me, it formed me into the wonderful person I now am and I wouldn’t change that for the world. Like I say, they thought it was a good idea but I cannot blame them for the bad things I went through by them making the decision in the first place.

Now we are closer, I try to go away with mum every year (we didn’t this year but hopefully next year?) and we tend to go up to London, wander round, see the world, catch up, do touristy things and generally just relax. We don’t really do much in depth stuff but we spend time together, eat, drink, put the world to rights and just enjoy each others company. Last year when we were in London we took a boat tour on the Thames and saw one of the boats my dad used to work on back in the day – The Will, I had to take a pic of her with it, 2 of my dad’s favourite things in 1 pic 😀

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I do genuinely love my mum, she is caring, kind, a bit stroppy upon occasions but when she wants to show her love, she will do so. I wish she and my brother were closer as I feel that would make her happier but I hope that no matter what, she knows how important she is in my life. I genuinely don’t think i’d be here still if she hadn’t been there when everything went bad, even from letting me cry in her lap when my heart was broken, or just taking photos away from me that a friend sent of me at her wedding and they made me cry. I looked so awful and I’ve never been a fan of myself but these were simply appalling and I wanted to throw them away but mum kept them for me as I didn’t want to offend my friend in the first place. She has influenced me and made me a lot of the person I am, a fighter, someone who is opinionated, brave, silly, loving, very sweet towards her friends and someone who will help out in a crisis.

One of my favourite things about my mum is her humour, I love making her laugh and I am very grateful she puts up with my dire jokes and still laughs. I know there’s times I really tickle her and I love that, I’m hoping that no matter what happens in our future, I can keep her laughing for as long as possible.

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I suppose this can be summed up as a massive thank you to my mum, for everything she does. She is brilliant and caring and I am so grateful she is in my life, I know not everyone’s relationship with their parents is strong as mine and I know I’m lucky for having them. I know we don’t always get on, or see eye to eye but I hope that our relationship is better than it was and continues to improve that way. You drive me mental at times, but I wouldn’t change you for the world.

Love you so much mum, hope it’s a great birthday and you have a wonderful time, see you Thursday and then Sunday for a lunch and presents xx

Day 20 – Where do I see myself in 5 years…

Well, i’ll be 40 for a start so officially old!!

Sorry, just my little joke as my best friend, my love and my brother are all much older than me so I like reminding them of that fact, mean yes but it amuses me so tough!!

I’d like to think myself and the man will still be together, in our own little place with a garden (rented, not purchased as unless there’s a lottery win, we’re never getting on the property ladder) maybe a pet, a man cave, full book shelves, lots of games and a lot of happiness. My family will hopefully all still be healthy and happy. My friends being happy and settled in life – to be fair, most of them are already but i’d like to know that the people who I care about are happy.

I’d like to travel more and be more comfortable with the person I am, I know I feel more comfortable now than say 5 years ago so I’m hoping as I continue to age, I get more confident, more loving of myself as opposed to how I’ve been in the past. It’s not an ego thing, more of an acceptance that this person is the person I am and overall isn’t too bad a person. I mean, I know i’m not a great person, there’s a lot of anger, sarcasm and envy in me but I do try to be a good person, I hope to leave the world a better place for having had me in it I suppose……..fingers crossed anyway!

This is such a tricky one for me, I mean, there are things i’d like to have done, (see 40 for 40 list…..)  and to be honest, I keep seeing more things I’d like to do but actually want to finish what I’ve planned before setting myself even more ridiculous tasks – speaking of which, if there are any things on my list any of you readers can help me achieve, please let me know….I’m struggling with some of these and need as much help as I can get!!

I think this’ll be a short one today because as far as i’m concerned, life is ok at the moment, pretty good in fact so maybe I should be happy with that as opposed to wishing my life away, Nothing is ever guaranteed and I’d like to just focus on the positives and the time I have instead of missing out on actual life due to being too obsessed with that I am aiming to do at some point.

I suppose that this isn’t the most fascinating bit of writing from me but at least the brief has been filled, sort of.

 

 

Day 19 – What makes me happy

Happiness is a sense of well-being, joy, or contentment. When people are successful, or safe, or lucky, they feel happiness. The “pursuit of happiness” is something this country is based on, and different people feel happiness for different reasons.

Below is a good selection of different things that make me happy, this isn’t a definitive list but merely something to show there are many different things – of differing levels which can bring happiness. I’d rather it not be possessions as I like to live with the thought that if I lost everything tomorrow in a fire or some such, I’m glad to know that a lot of the things that bring me happiness

smiles, moose, orangutans, silly videos, cheese, feeling comfortable, travel, seeing friends, having a man who I adore. so many things really.

I’d like to think that I do try to be optimistic, I know that some of my friends would be amazed to read that as I can be incredibly pessimistic and think that generally I have pretty bad luck but am pleased that after a few bad years, I now actively try to look for the positive as opposed to just settling on the negative.

Above is a good selection of things that make me smile.

My family and loved ones are amazing, I count some of my closest friends as family and am so lucky that they seem to like me (I often do not know why) and they’ve always been there for me, through thick and thin. I’m lucky to still have both my parents around and love spending time with them, I sadly don’t get to see my brother as often as i’d like as I live so far away and Public Transport in this country is a joke but I love the fact that when I need his support, he will be there for me.

Travel is a good thing for anyone I believe, there are some places I’ve never been that i’d love to go to but even if it’s just a weekend away from my normal home, I enjoy it, it doesn’t need to be glamourous or expensive to be a good place to holiday – saying that though, I really could do with a sunny holiday – it’s been bloody years!!

Food factors a huge part in my life, not as much as previously (when I’m pretty sure i’d eat my feelings and those of the people around me) but it is still a sign of my love and care – so if I offer to cook for you, pretend you like it haha – and a good way to make me smile. I know that’s really pathetic but food and the way people prepare, spend time over, care about is a sign of love for others.

Moose are my favourite animal (sorry Orangutans, you guys come a close second) and am so tempted to get myself the cross stitch kit above, I think there’s so many craft things I want to do so being given the option to craft AND make myself something fun is brilliant.

Drag is a relatively new thing in my life but I love it. I love seeing people be their authentic selves and being happy in the person they are. I’ve watched people hide themselves for fear of judgement and to see people finally go “F*ck this” and just decide to make themselves happy, and to live happy is amazing. I’ve always been completely comfortable as the person I am – despite the lack of self esteem and self hatred of my outer form – and I’d hate to be stuck like that, to not be comfortable enough or feel safe enough to just be themselves and that’s something if I could improve for everyone, I totally would do.

Some good things I have used to make myself happy – I was once told that faking it till you make it is a good thing here as you can trick your own brain into being happier, it doesn’t work all the time, but enough of the time – are below. I’m interested to see what other people do for themselves to give themselves a pep or whatnot. Feel free to let me know, lets share the love and happiness and see if we can’t spread a smile around the world.

1. Commit to doing one nice thing for yourself every day. – people focus all their energy on other people putting themselves last, try to not always do this, if you don’t take care of yourself, you won’t be able to take care of other people.
2. Listen to yourself – trust your judgement and do things which make you happy, People talking shit since the beginning of time, less they paying your bills pay them bitches no mind!
3. Forgive yourself – be more compassionate to yourself, you give others slack, so why hold yourself to higher standards?
4. Accept yourself as you are right now – it may not be perfect, but it is what it is, be strong in the person you are as there is NO ONE like you, you are a snowflake – not in the derogatory sense but in the sense of you are unique, individual and in your own way, perfect.
5. Eliminate toxic people in your life – not always possible but it’s just not worth your life constantly struggling with other people’s issues. Worry about yourself more and let others worry about themselves.
6. Prioritize your health – self care is very important. If you burn out, how will you be able to help other people.
7. Stop skipping meals – seriously, never a good thing, even if it’s a snack, or a salad or something small and tapas like, keep your energy up.
8. Breathe!
9. Give yourself a welcoming space – I found making my bed every morning meant that when I got in at night, it felt a bit like new sheets. It feels so much nicer than just crawling into an unmade pit! Plus, if I were to win the lottery I’d probably ask for fresh sheets everyday – but until then, I will just make do haha!
10. Get some sunlight – sunlight helps make you happy, if you feel a bit blue, even if it’s cold I always recommend going out for a walk. Wrap up warm and go for a wander, you might see something great but if not exercise and sunshine will help lift the mood.
11. Buy premium products for yourself – I do this, not always as I am inside a very frugal person but I do see the point, why treat other people but not yourself? I’m not saying only buy premium for you and screw everyone else but you deserve a treat every now and again too.

 

 

Day 18 – If I won the lottery….

Someone from the office actually asked this yesterday, and whilst the first answer from my boss was (shockingly) bus related it did get me thinking.

I’ve written a little list below of things which I think I’d like to do, in an ideal world, I’d have to be winning a massive amount, a life changing amount so the chances of this happening are slim – especially as I very rarely even buy lottery tickets!!

  • Help out family and friends – I think this is a no brainer really. Of course you would if you could wouldn’t you? I’d love to provide security for my closest friends and family. My loved ones deserve the world and if I could make their lives a bit easier, then I’d happily do so.
  • Set up a shelter type place in Poole, there are so many homeless who need help and not enough charities to do it – I’d always thought setting up a shelter that housed, cared for, fed those on the streets would really help or i’d like to support the current charity more – I already do food deliveries for a local homeless shelter in Poole and I’d love to help them more, or in an ideal world, set up a huge house for those who are currently on the streets. I sadly lost one of my homeless in last winter – he froze to death on the streets after the local council threw his sleeping things away and that genuinely affected me. He was sweet, kind, considerate and just kept himself to himself and despite that, the local council deemed him a menace and therefore thought binning things would improve matters, not offering help, or support and that really irks me. People become homeless for many reasons and I’d like to help, simply cos no – one would want to be in that way (in my opinion) and if I could make life a little easier (I see a common theme here) then I’d happily do so.
  • World travel – There’s so many places that I’ve wanted to see and travel to and even if I have already done them, it would be nice to take it to the next level – not strictly private jets and that but things like a hotel as opposed to a hostel for example would be a nice improvement. There’s so much of this planet I want to see and experience and time is running out so I’m sure money would make things easier. I think i’d get on a plane and go to Borneo, see some Orangutans in action – and help out the same charity to improve and then start ticking things off my bucket list. So many places, so little time!
  • Get the entire Discworld collection in the Unseen Library – ok, so this is a given, I’d like the full collection with 1 set of art, be it Josh Kirby’s or Paul Kidby. Just a special set of uniform looks would please my soul.
  • Adopt some more orangutans – again, for me, another no brainer. I know Palm Oil is now a big thing in lots of people’s worlds – see the Iceland Xmas ad if you don’t believe me but I am happy to have been a part of this fight for a while and for me it’s a sacrifice worth making to save those gorgeous little things…..I mean, look into their eyes and tell me they aren’t sentient.
  • Train as a firewalk trainer/leader – I have walked on hot coals twice and for sure, if I had unlimited money I would happily train to show other people how to do this, it was something that really built my confidence in me and would love to pass that feeling on to others.
  • SEE THE NORTHERN LIGHTS – well, who wouldn’t want this?
  • SWIM WITH TURTLES – as above
  • Silent disco at the Natural History Museum – I’ve wanted to do this for years but money (or lack of) has always stopped me, maybe next year will be the year.
  • Start donating more and practically helping out causes which mean a lot to me – Alzheimer’s research and Orangutan Foundation are the 2 charities I support most at the moment but I’d definitely like to help more and share the love. There’s so many needy people and I wish I could help all of them so maybe more money will help.
  • Take the man to Essen and to Miami, he is such a wonderful man to me that I want to make all his dreams come true. I know how much he loves gaming so would like to take him to the centre of those worlds and be able to spoil him the way he spoils me.
  • Just have time – I think this is the main thing I would choose, I mean, if you have money, you have time, if you have time, you can do pretty much what you want. Not saying I want to break laws and that but I see classes I’d like to take which I cannot, because I work, so if I wasn’t having to work, maybe I’d learn new things, maybe I’d take up hobbies, maybe I’d actually learn to be good at something. Just having time I feel would be a real luxury.

What about you? What would be on your wishlist if you could choose anything? Feel free to let me know, inspire me and see where imagination takes you.

Day 17 – Thoughts on Education

To be honest, i’m not sure how someone can be negative about education……I mean, who actually doesn’t want to be educated and aware of how the world works and why?

I had interesting times at school. I would say overall I enjoyed it, the places, the learning – not necessarily the people and the lack of confidence in myself or the stress I put myself under at the time for something which really, isn’t that big of a deal.

I’d like to share some fun stories from my school times throughout my life, about teachers who have inspired me and things which have shaped my views and behaviours! I have already spoken about let’s say, less than positive points in my learning, not being very confident, being bullied and the like but for this, I’d like to share snippets of stories which have had a positive influence on my life and the person I am. I hope that this shows my thoughts on Education and that also not all education is book learning based.

England – Tower Rd Primary School – Mr Pike – such a great teacher, who I don’t actually think was MY teacher at any point but he was definitely a massive influence and someone who made me question the world, and have a thirst for knowledge of how things worked and their places in the world overall. I’m lucky enough to have now found Mr Pike on social media and despite the fact he and I differ on a lot of views and opinions, I cannot thank him enough for being that first teacher who made me feel open to the world.

There are other great teachers that I had at Tower Rd but I cannot remember them all, there was the teacher who put up with myself a best friend acting out scenes from Monty Python, the art teacher who tried again and again to make me an artist, the piano teacher who couldn’t actually play piano, the teacher who let me take the school rabbit home for the holidays and even the English teacher who helped me with my squint and the stupid glasses/patches I had to wear. These people have all made me the person I began my life as (well, the first 11 years lets say) and that gave me a good base to work from.

I passed my 11+ (for younger readers, ask your parents) and went to the local girls grammar school, this was a strange few years for me as it was stressful at home, a bit disjointed with family life and a very sad time in our home and family. I found myself being bullied by some really awful human beings and thankfully the school librarian Miss Gallagher seemed to understand so she encouraged me, let me go in during the holidays to help out, made me feel comfortable and always willing to give new ideas/suggestions for someone who wanted to read everything. She genuinely got me interested in so many random things, plus was one of the first people I knew who was veggie/vegan leaning and I got a lot of info about things which interested her. I liked that she always treated me like an equal, as opposed to a student.

Mr and Mrs Ross were an epic teaching couple, he taught English and she taught Science (I cannot for the life of me remember which specific one) and in the years I was back in the High school after Spain were year heads. I was certain that they hated me – ok this is a bit dramatic, i’m pretty sure they didn’t hate me but I felt like they tolerated me, the fact I had come back off my own back and not gone through the standard system made me feel very out there and an oddity – but in the end of my time back in the sixth form I found them both to be really lovely supportive and made me Miss smiles in the U6 – how the heck that happened i have no idea!! Even she said when giving me the award that other people had brought up how positive as a person I was……I still to this day think they might have confused me with someone else!!

Moving to Spain when I was 14 was stressful and to begin with, I genuinely cannot remember anything about my teachers that I liked, there were ones who most definitely treated me differently due to the fact I was English. My language was not good enough in that first year and some issues did happen but as i’m trying to be positive I’m just going to focus on the fun teachers.

My favourite teacher, and actually someone who even then I considered more of a friend than a teacher was Vicente, my art teacher for the last year or so of Spanish school. He made us watch films and do creative projects and was always open to just learn about people. He and I shared a very similar music taste which as I was very singular whilst there, really helped me feel less weird. I can remember when a favourite band of both of ours brought out a new album, we knew there would be 1 copy in the music store in Malaga and both had plans to get it before the other. Running through a mall to beat a middle aged man to a quality album is a memory that will stay with me forever.

I’m actually really happy as Vicente and I are still friends, he keeps popping up in my life and I love seeing his gallery shows and the way his life has taken him. Am pleased he still accepts me for me though, he’s still incredibly encouraging – despite my general inability to do anything arty!!

The last teacher I will talk about is one who was a good teacher to me but a great show of how people power can have an effect, probably the first time I’ve ever seen that work in person.

The spanish teaching system is generally based on 1 year contracts, every new teaching student will be sent from school to school to hone their skills and our Music and religion teacher was actually brilliant and when we heard that he had been moved onto his next school we all felt like we would be detrimentally affected by this so the decision was made to have a student strike. We superglued all the doors and main school gates for a few days to no avail so then decided to actually have a sit out, we would refuse to go to classes until he was brought back.

To be honest, this was (and still sort of is) totally odd to me, I fully expected to be out there for say 20 mins before the teachers would just barrel out and order us inside with our tails between our legs……so 4 hours later I was getting cold and more importantly bored. I went home, deciding it would be better to at least do some homework or the like. Cue walking into the house to tell mum why I was home earlier……she totally didn’t believe me so (with my dad – for extra punishment if I was trying it on) frogmarched me down to my school gates to find out what I was on about…….EVERYONE was gone. I’ve never been so nervous in my life, bloody typical, I decided i’d had enough and went home, then the teachers had finally snapped and got everyone inside. I was cacking myself!!

Thankfully upon going inside the school I saw the school secretary who seemed surprised I was there, I explained why I was and her response to my parents at least made them see I was telling the truth. Scary but fun nonetheless.

We never did get that teacher back I don’t think but it certainly made me more likely to revolt in future about things I saw an issue with. Sometimes, lessons like that are invaluable.

I hope over the course of these little stories have given my opinion clearly, I loved learning – I still do – and I honestly feel it’s people like this who gave me this feeling and inspired me to always try more and learn more and see more.

I should also point out that there were a multitude of teachers I haven’t talked about, all good in their own way and therefore should not be ignored. I am immensely proud of my schooling and the person I have turned out to be, and I can only hope they feel the same way!

 

 

 

Day 16 – What’s your favourite movie?

I’m not much of a film person anymore, I’m not sure I’ve got the patience for this right now as my attention span is a lot shorter than it used to be.

There are however, some films I will happily watch and re watch time and time again, like Some Like It Hot, Young Frankenstein, Finding Nemo, Tank Girl and i’m also a pretty big fan of shockingly awful films – generally with massive sharks/crocs or the inevitable end of the world happening so our new introduction to the Sharknado set of films has been a) eventful and b) bloody brilliant!!

I used to really love films but after a couple of operations and being pretty much housebound for a few months I found that I would be able to handle 30m or so but then i’d be way to bored. Or i’d lose my thread and couldn’t pick it up again. I do still try to do watch films but find that unless it’s one i’ve seen before, or REALLY absorbing, I cannot handle or even remember it the next day (true – last time the man and I watched a film we were talking about it the next day and I could remember about half of the plot and even the “twist” were a bit dimmed to me. One day, hopefully that may change but as it stands, I need to find new films which I can actually get into. If anyone has any suggestions, please, contact me and give me your thoughts, am always willing to try something new.

I’ve written about movies I enjoy previously (read it here) so I need to make sure that the film(s) I write about today are not on the same list. This doesn’t mean that these films mean any less to me but that I know they are different to the previous article.

The first film I have chosen is Jaws.

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“When a young woman is killed by a shark while skinny-dipping near the New England tourist town of Amity Island, police chief Martin Brody (Roy Scheider) wants to close the beaches, but mayor Larry Vaughn (Murray Hamilton) overrules him, fearing that the loss of tourist revenue will cripple the town. Ichthyologist Matt Hooper (Richard Dreyfuss) and grizzled ship captain Quint (Robert Shaw) offer to help Brody capture the killer beast, and the trio engage in an epic battle of man vs. nature.”

Whilst I do genuinely love this film, the book and all it’s options, I’ve watched it so often that it’s become a classic as opposed to a great film! I very much enjoy the over acting, the dodgy effects and was really lucky a few years ago to be able to see it out in the open air cinema next to Bournemouth beach.

I went with a couple of friends, took many snack and really relished listening to the real life sea lapping and seagulls crying as we watched the gore and overall superbness of the film.

I think it’s difficult to discuss a film which is one of my faves without giving away too much detail or for that matter story. I know that most people would have seen this but I would definitely recommend the book too, well worth a read over a couple of days 🙂

Another good film which I do re-watch and then promptly forget about is Miss Congeniality.

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“When a terrorist threatens to bomb the Miss United States pageant, the FBI rushes to find a female agent to go undercover as a contestant. Unfortunately, Gracie is the only female FBI agent who can “look the part” despite her complete lack of refinement and femininity. She prides herself in being “just one of the boys” and is horrified at the idea of becoming a girly girl.”

I know, I know, from one extreme to the other so far on this list but bear with me.

I first saw this film years ago when I was going through a bubblegum phase, not looking for deep and meaningful but more, fun and a bit of cheese and this has this in spades. I’ve always been a sucker for Sandra Bullock films too so that most definitely helped this become a fave of mine!

I’ve always been very tomboy ish and although this takes that to the extreme, there is a huge part of me that would love a glam team, to make me lady – like, beautiful and more comfortable as myself – a lottery win is probably needed for this but still, it’s a 90 minute, glittery fun romp through beauty pageants and a film I can watch again and again and will happily recommend this to anyone wanting a girly film which isn’t just the average sugary sweet romantic offering!

Lastly today I think i’ll write about one of my favourite Disney films – I haven’t seen many of them to be honest and I know that appalls one of my friends as she is a Disney Princess but in real life (honestly, if she doesn’t have livestock coming and doing her chores; then there is something really unfair about the world!

Anyway, the Disney film I do tend to go back to every so often to reattach to my more childish side is Aladdin.

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“When street rat Aladdin frees a genie from a lamp, he finds his wishes granted. However, he soon finds that the evil has other plans for the lamp — and for Princess Jasmine. But can Aladdin save Princess Jasmine and his love for her after she sees that he isn’t quite what he appears to be?”

I can remember watching this at my aunt’s one night we were there when I was a kid, I’d always been a huge fan of Robin Williams and this made this film perfect for me. Ok, so it has a lot of romance, which I don’t care about in any film but the humour and songs are actually brilliant. I hadn’t seen the film for well over 10 years and a friend of mine stuck it on in the background and I was astounded at the amount of songs I could still remember!

It’s corny, it’s funny, it’s colourful – weirdly useful for when you’re in a real funk i’ve found, colourful films are just amazing for that!

Ok, that’s enough for now I think. I’m running out of other things to say so will no doubt expand more, or talk about more at some point in the future of my writing!!

 

Day 10 – Best Trip Of Your Life

I’ve  been really lucky to be honest and travel has been a big thing for me, I haven’t taken advantage like I should have (travel while you can kids – it becomes harder as you get older) but even since I moved back to the UK, I have enjoyed travel and a variety of wonderful holidays.

I decided to write about a few places as some really stick in my brain but I also don’t want to make it seem like I have had only 1 good trip and the rest have all been mediocre.

  • CUBA
  • DOMINICAN REPUBLIC
  • PARIS
  • ISTANBUL
  • EGYPT
  • PRAGUE
  • BARCELONA

I have travelled a few places (from the list above) and every place I go – even if bad things happen like in Cuba, I feel lucky to have seen the places and experienced the life. I definitely try to relish the positives and kind of work past the negatives.

Cuba was the first place I had travelled alone, I had a real wanderlust when I was younger and when I left school, worked for a while, but Cuba was going to be my jumping off point. Unfortunately, I got mugged halfway through the first week and came home early, before I had seen and experienced what I wanted to – something which I regret to this day!  I did love the joy of seeing the crystal clear waters, and the fun of speaking with Cubans and actually finding out about their lives, which was mind-blowing and if someone had said to me “give me all of your possessions” I would have done – and then at least been able to keep hold of my passport! anyway, it was still a wonderful trip.

Sadly I don’t even think I have any of the photos I took in Cuba. I’ve moved about 10 times since then and somewhere along the way, they got lost but the memories of watching storms fly overhead, snorkelling with a barracuda, gorgeous flowers tumbling down in the main hall of the hotel and the wonderful 4 pools and azure sea. Sometimes memories are good enough.

I went to the Dom Rep years ago with the ex who shall not be named. It was a good holiday but unfortunately he managed to ruin a lot of it – we met some lovely people who he managed to push away with his attitude but still, it was nice to see dolphins, swim and feed fish with bread and to generally meet new people. I am still in touch with a wonderful couple we met and that for me is a real bonus. Again the Caribbean is superb and wonderful and despite the negatives from it, I managed to take away good memories.

Paris is somewhere really special for myself and my family. My dad lived and worked out there and it is most definitely his spiritual home. He loves spending time there and I adore being there with him and exploring and seeing how his world has been shaped by it. I try to spend time there as often as I can, I love eating at the restaurants he worked in and seeing the world he lived among. I do enjoy this and love learning random facts every time we go.

My parents and I went to Istanbul a few years ago for my mums birthday. It was really wonderful to be able to stand on 2 continents as it were and a really wonderful place to spend time (I’m not sure how comfortable I would be now as I have heard it is much less friendly to westerners now but I still enjoyed it and apart from a couple of places, I didn’t feel harassed or uncomfortable. It is a wonderful mix of culture and style, such wonderful places to see, lots of beautiful markets and buildings and despite my general dislike of Churches, I do really like Mosques and had a great time exploring and seeing the places which I had read about.

I was so lucky to go to Egypt years ago with my parents. I’d always dreamed of seeing the Pyramids and I actually never thought it would be possible so when I was given the opportunity I jumped at it. I loved it, it is stunning and wonderful but the level of poverty is scary. I would happily go back but feel that my own personal levels couldn’t handle it. I can remember haggling for an ashtray for a friend, and I realised I was haggling between 40 and 50 pence. Which I’d have been happy to pay full price if you see what I mean. I’m not sure how I could cope. I’d definitely recommend it to people though, just be aware of the looky looky men who are very brazen.

Prague was a great holiday, we went for my dad’s birthday and I have written about it previously (see the link here: share about a recent holiday) but it is certainly somewhere I will be going back to. Full of history, culture, galleries, epic food and drink and a real great place to spend some time. Even those places which weren’t the most glam, were still fun.

Lastly I thought I’d talk about Barcelona. I truly love this place and spending time there, I feel comfortable and free there. Great bars, great buildings, fun places and epic restaurants. I used to travel there alone (very much like my dad with Paris) but am looking forward to showing it off to the man, sharing my life and the places I love with him, which, considering that Parc Guell is where I want to be scattered when I pass away, it would probably be a good thing for him to know where it is for example 😉

So, I’ve finally reached the end of my list. Ok so not specifically “The best trip” of my life but I prefer seeing the positives in a lot of things, at least this was I can appreciate all the trips I take as opposed to trying to make one better than the rest.

I’m hoping to take the man somewhere sunny next year – somewhere cheap and cheerful is always appreciated and we’ve never actually gone somewhere warm so if you have any suggestions, I’m all ears. I’d love somewhere with a bit of history and culture but also somewhere pretty and fun to enjoy nature and relax. Think that would cover all bases!